dear you my diary,

i am busy to the maximum right now.

so many things to do + tons of assignments need to be done.

all sessions + reports here and there.

urrghh.. stress is my companion lately.

pictures can describe thousand of meaning.

same like picture i uploaded.

hectic week please let go of me.

keep calm and soon exam is coming.

yess,, very soon.

*heart break into pieces.

                                                                               tulip lavender,

                                                            01.59 am, 17/12/2013.

praise be to Allah.

hai salam to my dearest diary.
again, after sometimes i feel like i want to do writing on you, dear.
forget about my tons of assignments.
forget about outside world.
missing you my diary.
sorry for forgetting you for too long.
truly sorry for making you empty.

days start and go like usual.
routine still need to be done as the world keeps cycle.
life should continue on the right track
although time is always envy with us,
we as human should try to run and always run for that..
FAITH.

several months ago, i had applied for JPA scholarship and just a few days back the result already came out. since  weeks my heart cannot stop beating fast and i do feel give up thinking that there are thousand people apply for the scholarship and i might be not one of them. so two days ago i find all my strength to see the result and Alhamdulillah i my status is BERJAYA and i got to wait till the end of the month to settle all the requirement. syukur Alhamdulillah and thanks Allah for believing in me and choosing me yet give me this opportunity. i cried a bit at that night sbb sangat terharu to be selected. my dream is i want to become as successful i can be and achieve all my dream to be a better person for my family, my Malaysia n my Islam for sure. wish me not to be riyak and begging you Allah to lead me in the right way.Ameen.
 *tearing.

Happy Eid Mubarak. ;)

although it may be late, but i sincerely wishing all muslims Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin.

forgivr me for all my wrongdoings and love me more instead. hewhew.

the night you should remember.

hai assalamualaikum.
have you been in a class which you cannot think straight because the lecturer is super duper scary?
have you ever feel that skip class is better than go to lecture?
have you also experienced something that was very embarrassing for you?
confused from the beginning?
stand alone while the whole hall are staring intensely at you?
yes i have been through it tonight.
dude, i said ive been through it.!
what a shame.
got no answer for the question told by the lecturer really made me fulls of embarrassment.
only God knows how i am feeling at that time.
oh i feel so sleepy.
got nothing more to say.
i am greatly not okay tonight and all i need are pillow and Shay.
nite.

my heart says friend can't be someone else.

this very early morning one of bestie text me saying that "hey, ko dh kapel ke dgn dy?" to which i replied " friend is friend. not more than that".
i dont know where on earth she got this ridiculous thought and just simply saying things like that.
my philosophy is friend is friend who can help or leave you in certain event which cannot be more than that which is turn into your loved one. it is my opinion cz i dont want something mushy intervene with the friendship. it is too pure to destroy it.
 but once again, i dont know what ALLAH  has plan for me. i wish i can be on the right track. peace.
 c.c to mida. *teehee.

hurm ..
as for today my heart is beating fast to see this picture.
hew hew.. nice guy daebak!

song joong ki.

home is boring if...

hai peeps.

it was sunday and i am lying myself on the bed while surfing for the internet,

wth?

huh,,

for a week at home i found myself is so relax with nothing to do.

i spent my whole days by watching korea or specifically NICE GUY which i think this drama is good to be watched. just try watching it and u will be shower with tears.haha.*for those softhearted.

cant believe?

me myself is the evidence. i cried so hard as i watched Song Joongki find difficulties in his life from small till adult and he definitely try to solve every obstacles with his brilliant head. and u will be going around with a bloated eyes for sure.hehe.

 *i m pretty sure if you wont get boring if u got things to do.

e.g: buat donut and buah melaka instead of membuta,

peace.