my handmade jubah on my first day of 6th semester.

assalamualaikum.
 hai again.
finally my 6th semester has arrived.!
wow getting excited for this new semester and i got few things so called as "preparation for new semester"
ceh new semester la sangat kan.hiks. i bought few things such as two pairs f shoes, new bags, a polka dot fan and few random things. i dont know since when i become addicted to polka dots and play with neon and bright colours. huh. and not very important one is i wear my very first handmade jubah today!! so excited and the feeling as i touch the moon over the sky. okkey over dah.! that feeling is not before i burn my own jubah last night when i ironed that precious piece!!! oh my god.!! what have i done to my jubah!! i burnt it with my own two hands.! tak sedar pun tau-tau dah berasap. luckily the hole was small and people wont aware of it unless they have interest in me. ceh. so halfheartedly i wear it today and people keep saying that the jubah is awesome and pretty.!! hahaha berbunga hati ini tau.

how was it? sorry me is a bit katik here.!!

calja.!

lazy of me.

hai assalamualaikum.

mulala kan. asal minggu2 final exam mesti perasaan ni datang dgn sendirinya. tapi kali ni memang tak leh nak bendung. tuliplavender tak pernah rase semalas ini nak study. tuliplavender tak pernah xstudy utk final and amazingly it happen this semester.! memang tahu dan percaya exam is one or two days ahead tapi kenapa takda rasa nak study? study ni pun sebab tengok kengkawan study n macam tak patut kalau xstudy but deep down inside tak tahu la apa yang masuk dalam kepala hotak tuliplavender ni.

bangunlah wahai si pemalas.!

okke at first i demam for almost a week and dont have energy to start on study and bukak buku sume tu. but now dah baik dah kot rasenya and suppose to study starting last week lagi tapi keadaan masih sama macam bajet2 demam lagi. macam tak takut langsung siap boleh tengok tv yang selama ni tak pernah heran pun cerita hape dalam tv tu and lepak2 tido mcm orang takda masa depan.! buku pun pandang seperti takda depan mata. 

oh my god what is happening to me.? dah banyak kali nak sedarkan diri ni. memang kau xingat mak n family kt kampung kan kalau tengok gaya kau relax kan tuliplavender? mak apsal dasat sangat kadar kemalasan ni? tengoklah sempat lagi writing on blog tanpa mengendahkan paper yang straight three days in a row kamis, jumaat sabtu tu. dont tell me you are under possession ke hape. or kena buatan orang? okke stop this crappy things.!!

why not pergi study sekarang and bukak nota yang tak pernah berbukak tu? please someone wake me up from this laziness.! kenapa takda rasa menyesal ni? tak risau langsung dengan result ke? ke sebab takda subjek arab so you boleh enjoy as much as you want? come on babe. sayangi diri anda. jangan dah dapat result baru sebuk nak nangis dalam toilet n mata bengkak2. 

p/s: makan kismis n doa panjang2 pun tak guna cik kak kalau awak malas study.sekian.

dear you my diary,

i am busy to the maximum right now.

so many things to do + tons of assignments need to be done.

all sessions + reports here and there.

urrghh.. stress is my companion lately.

pictures can describe thousand of meaning.

same like picture i uploaded.

hectic week please let go of me.

keep calm and soon exam is coming.

yess,, very soon.

*heart break into pieces.

                                                                               tulip lavender,

                                                            01.59 am, 17/12/2013.

praise be to Allah.

hai salam to my dearest diary.
again, after sometimes i feel like i want to do writing on you, dear.
forget about my tons of assignments.
forget about outside world.
missing you my diary.
sorry for forgetting you for too long.
truly sorry for making you empty.

days start and go like usual.
routine still need to be done as the world keeps cycle.
life should continue on the right track
although time is always envy with us,
we as human should try to run and always run for that..
FAITH.

several months ago, i had applied for JPA scholarship and just a few days back the result already came out. since  weeks my heart cannot stop beating fast and i do feel give up thinking that there are thousand people apply for the scholarship and i might be not one of them. so two days ago i find all my strength to see the result and Alhamdulillah i my status is BERJAYA and i got to wait till the end of the month to settle all the requirement. syukur Alhamdulillah and thanks Allah for believing in me and choosing me yet give me this opportunity. i cried a bit at that night sbb sangat terharu to be selected. my dream is i want to become as successful i can be and achieve all my dream to be a better person for my family, my Malaysia n my Islam for sure. wish me not to be riyak and begging you Allah to lead me in the right way.Ameen.
 *tearing.

Happy Eid Mubarak. ;)

although it may be late, but i sincerely wishing all muslims Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir & Batin.

forgivr me for all my wrongdoings and love me more instead. hewhew.

the night you should remember.

hai assalamualaikum.
have you been in a class which you cannot think straight because the lecturer is super duper scary?
have you ever feel that skip class is better than go to lecture?
have you also experienced something that was very embarrassing for you?
confused from the beginning?
stand alone while the whole hall are staring intensely at you?
yes i have been through it tonight.
dude, i said ive been through it.!
what a shame.
got no answer for the question told by the lecturer really made me fulls of embarrassment.
only God knows how i am feeling at that time.
oh i feel so sleepy.
got nothing more to say.
i am greatly not okay tonight and all i need are pillow and Shay.
nite.

my heart says friend can't be someone else.

this very early morning one of bestie text me saying that "hey, ko dh kapel ke dgn dy?" to which i replied " friend is friend. not more than that".
i dont know where on earth she got this ridiculous thought and just simply saying things like that.
my philosophy is friend is friend who can help or leave you in certain event which cannot be more than that which is turn into your loved one. it is my opinion cz i dont want something mushy intervene with the friendship. it is too pure to destroy it.
 but once again, i dont know what ALLAH  has plan for me. i wish i can be on the right track. peace.
 c.c to mida. *teehee.

hurm ..
as for today my heart is beating fast to see this picture.
hew hew.. nice guy daebak!

song joong ki.